31 Oct 2011

Christened; Christcelda

Hello loves!

I was born in the year of the horse. So, by virtue of the Chinese Zodiac, I am supposed to be;strong, outgoing, extremely animated (whatever that is), attention seeker, humorous, intelligent, capable, honest, friendly, open-minded, self-centred, short-tempered, and the list goes on, and on.

Source: Chinese Zodiac/bluebison.net

I am fully aware that I am not supposed to believe in any of it, but sometimes I do (because of certain things).

If I were to analyze my own self, I know that I will usually overlooks many things that I might assume as petty stuffs. So, don't count on me. *Grins*
 However, here goes;

I came from an underprivileged family, consisting of 13 siblings and two pairs of parents (Yeah, you heard me right. I had two moms, and two dads, but there were only two of them left now),where frozen milo was a substitute for chocolate bars, watching T.V was a rare occurrence, phone was a device from the outer-space, computer was never really seen before, and farming was my "favourite" activity.
These had always became my motivations of why I was working so hard in my study. I wanted to be rich. *Ha Ha*

Source: History of Money/nrich.maths

I was afraid of my dad since I was very little up to a few years back, mostly due to his "habit" of beating us, siblings when he was angry and drunk. He was pagan then. However, he was hospitalized for a number of times since a few years back due to an incurable disease (multiple myeloma @ cancer of the plasma cells in bone marrow). Seeing him so fragile now, I don't quite remember why was I so afraid of him back then.

My dad.

My mom has always been my rock for as long as I  can remember. I was always afraid that I might not have the chance to repay my debt to her, that I have always shared with her my "allowances". I've remembered when I was younger; my step siblings will always call me to their houses to take care of their kids, or help out preparing for festivals and stuffs. The allowances that they gave to me, will usually be divided between my mom and I. 

My mom was illiterate (at least now, she can speak in a very basic English to my nieces, with very limited vocabulary), and unemployed. So, she has no income except from the farm, and the rubber estate. Since she was married to my dad due to an arranged marriage, I don't think that they have ever loved each other. My dad had rarely (RARELY) gave my mom any allowances. As time goes by, I've developed a skill in twisting my stories a little bit so that my dad will give me extra allowances for me to secretly give my mom. *Ha Ha*. That was fun.

Source: Arranged Marriage/kenneyjacob.com

I have been going to the farm/estate/orchards/fields since I was small, so I've developed strong muscles on both my biceps, and legs. So, when I went for boarding school, I am actually capable of running for a long distance. I have to thank my dad for this. *Grins*. I've remembered that I couldn't even beat the girls at my primary school when I was younger, and yet, I could represent my school for sports and stuffs.

Source: Running Track/eriding.net

I wasn't really able in making friends during the first few months at my middle school since I rarely smiled. So, it was quite a surprise when I've actually befriend a number of girls by the end of that year, and we are still best friends now. On the second year of my middle school, I've gotten to know a teacher who teaches Japanese, and I've adored her. She's our inspiration. :)

Sensei :)

After I've finished my form 5, I've applied for a scholarship to be a doctor, but was rejected. That was such a big roadblock in my life as a student. I've remembered crying myself out inside a van, going home. In the end, I've spent an extra one year in matriculation, before doing my A-level. It was quite a waste of young age, I must say. However, I was christened Christcelda that year at Labuan. So, not a total waste! God had other plans for me.

Source: Labuan Matriculation College/panoramio.com

Right now, I'm a second year Chemist in the University of Bristol. I can't imagine it! My major is the subject that I thought was the toughest during my SPM. However, due to a certain special teacher at matriculation, I've learnt to love this subject, thus took a big leapt in my "future-career" choice. At the moment, I am studying to be a chemistry teacher, since I am bonded with the ministry of education. Regardless of that bond, I won't stop as it is.

I will further my study once I've stabilized my financial status, and I wanted to become a green chemist at one of the research centre at Sabah. The environment has been deteriorating badly these days, that I want to recover all of that for my future generations. I would like to hear people saying sometimes that I've made a difference.

I wanted to be rich, so that I can buy the land at the other side of the road, in front of my elder brother's house. I will build a big house there, so that I can open a nursery at my home. Since I have been talking forever in my previous posts about my love for dogs, I will keep a number of pet dogs around my house.

I wanted my mom to live a long life, so that I can keep on taking care of her, and bring her to all over the world so that she can brag about her travels to the neighbours. I wanted to get married, and have kids that I will love so much, and will teach them how to respect the elderly.

I am so selfish, that I wanted everybody to share my happiness. I have even thought of adopting the children in Africa, or anywhere in the third-world countries, so that they can at least learn that there is more to life than just suffering in poverty. Sometimes, I've thought of opening a special house for all the less fortunate out there. I know that these are just wishful thinking right now.
So, that's why I have no choice, but to be rich!

Oh my! I was so immersed in myself, that I've wrote toooooooooo much.

Anyway, please be happy, people!


Wynda said...

i like your story mandak^^ sa pun betambah2 semangat ni^^ T_T <3

Melissa Gilbert said...

tacing2 ne zal post kooo!!i wish for u all the best so that u can adopt all the children in 3rd world country so that u can teach them chemistry!!!!n if u want a babysitter once in a while,im here..

Miss Allyn Rosa said...

hello sista.. this is the reason i made this giveaway.. i was in need of looking for an inspiration..a new insight about things that started to blur .. not that i am not being grateful or too carried away..it's just that.. i keep thinking why am i taking a few subject that is not related to my point of interset. however..soon i realise that..well..maybe..whatever subject i took, there must be a reason why i continue to take it as a challenge for me. and for the same reason on how i look at my life and others life, i do share some of my dreams like yours. i must say how high is your hope. but that is super good. in times, i know that sabah is in need of people like you. and i hope, when you come back from bristol, you would be a good role model not only to your siblings or relatives, but especially your students and people around you.
life is always fair i think. because in times, no matter how hard life it, it gets better. and i always remember a quote saying that, it doesn't matter how we start, even if it is bad..the most important thing is how we gonna end it.
i wish you all the best sis. i know there's still long way to go. but i know, you're going to make through everything. and i have to say that i am so proud of you..not only because of the story behind your beautiful smile, but who you are in present. i have to admit that i admire your strong will during our highschool and i secretly adore you and back in my mind, you are my inspiration..:)
and i am glad to know bits about ur story. i understand that it is not easy to get where you stand now, it requires a lot of preserverance and motivation to push yourself...but one thing i know, God surely had a big and great plan for you! :) The road is already there, you just have to walk the walk. in times there might be obstacles an difficulties, but you will go through it in God who strengthen u..
sy doakan spya sis dpt cpai cita2 sis, berjaya dgn cemerlang..and make your dream come true.. you go girl! :)
thanks for the beautiful story...
i'll announce the winner soon i am free from exams..i'll let everyone knows..and will contact through FB or email.. thanks once again and God bless! :) have a good day..

Miki Aya said...

wyndut: bah meh kta bersama2 berusaha utk menjadi kaya! haha :)

mel: mna bleh sy hire master grad utk jd babysitter. mahal o mo bayar! hahaha.... iya bah kan? tba2 terlebih2 touching ni. wahahahaha. malu i.

Miki Aya said...

Allyn: Thank you. That was beautiful :). Never knew I could even be someone's inspiration back then, or even right now. Ha ha. I've never felt adequate. I'll get lost sometimes, but I believe that God is always there for us :). Not just me, but for everyone else too. You take care, and do your very best in achieving your personal dream! I'm rooting for you. :)

Aemy Shamy said...

why do we always have things in common? i was born in the year of horse too! & made a history in LMC! ^^ but you're a determined person, stronger than me..i enjoy reading your story here, friend. it's encouraging..i can see the paradigm shift there, in a good way. thanks for this, dear..no matter where we come from, what's the color of our background..we'll always can success & get what we want. have a good day. :)

Blackcurrant said...

Touching and inspirational story. That's a good intention you have there. All your hard works are finally rewarded. All the best in achieving your dreams but don't forget the poor ones in our land. Land below the wind :)

reanaclaire said...

You have a very nice blog here Miki... thanks for coming by.. all the best to you in your undertakings..

b0m^2 said...

huhhuhhhuhhuhuhuhhu napa sa nangis ni ..?? bucur mata sia.. :D siok

Miki Aya said...

Aemy: That might be the reason why we were read each other's posts, and be inspired like this! Thank you. You are such a lovely person. I hope that you will get through your life successfully too :)

Blackcurrant: Thanks! Though, I must say that my work is not finished. I still have a long way to go for the ultimate goal. Well of course, I've always thought of the less fortunate in Sabah. :) Maybe someday, things will change.

Claire: Thank you so much!

Kulas: Haha. Bucur ka? Ala, siou! :) Jangan emo2.....tp, bleh jg la emo2. sy pun kuat nangis jg ni. hehe :)

ana.faraqien said...

hei, you. i was born in Horse year too! LOL.

SEmoga berjaya menjadi apa yang ko cita2kan. Boleh ba tu kalau yakin ja sepanjang masa. Will pray the best for u!

Reading ur post, made me realize. I had the same ambition too. i wanted to be rich and buat macam Oprah Winfrey buat. dia tolong ppl all around the world.

i believe someday, sometime, we'll achieve our ambition. dan masa tu la kita akan tersenyum bangga! because we do made a difference :)

i enjoyed reading ur post and hoping that your dad will be okay. i cant imagine my dad camtu. it's so sad to bear :(

sarah lysa reynolds said...

pretty sumandakz! touching story! 'though some of it u ody tell me in person. but hey, double the happiness by sharing them .. all da best in life ya! xoxo!

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frecyllamAy said...

sis,sy suka baca ni post... so inspirational :).. u make me feel blessed for my life now..yaa, God has great purpose for each and everyone of u.. God bless u wherever u are :D

Miki Aya said...

ana: ahhhhh, let's try our hardest to achieve our ultimate dream: to be rich like oprah! haha :) thank you! my dad will appreciate your thoughts...though, he's really old now. hehe :) i'm so glad that you've enjoyed reading my post :)

winn: hahaha.... sy x terpikir bah ni mo tulis...tp, c alin bt giveaway kan. so, i was like..... y not? bleh dpt hadiah dr aus klu menang. hehe.... but still, thanks. ko pun pretty sumandak jg :)

may: thanks! i'm happy that what i've wrote can at least inspire someone. :) Well, i believe in the same thing too. God has His plan made for each and every one of us....we only have to trust in Him. God bless you too :)

Cherrie.Mia said...

reading ur post made me go missing my mom. I hope i can repay her.

I like ur post.

Ellye Evangelista said...

ahhh..i just read your story sis. awww..lmbt sikit. Love it. Your story inspired me. :') God will always have a better plan for us. :D

simpodonvilla said...

pa macam dad ko uda d tu? mmg sy tau dia sakit tpi xtau sakit apa, skrang baru d tau..
full story mantad tokoro gisom agayo, ngam nedti kada lihuai molohing, sumiliu urang kaya kada lihuai molohing...=)