Christened; Christcelda

Hello loves!

I was born in the year of the horse. So, by virtue of the Chinese Zodiac, I am supposed to be;strong, outgoing, extremely animated (whatever that is), attention seeker, humorous, intelligent, capable, honest, friendly, open-minded, self-centred, short-tempered, and the list goes on, and on.

Source: Chinese Zodiac/bluebison.net

I am fully aware that I am not supposed to believe in any of it, but sometimes I do (because of certain things).

If I were to analyze my own self, I know that I will usually overlooks many things that I might assume as petty stuffs. So, don't count on me. *Grins*
 However, here goes;

I came from an underprivileged family, consisting of 13 siblings and two pairs of parents (Yeah, you heard me right. I had two moms, and two dads, but there were only two of them left now),where frozen milo was a substitute for chocolate bars, watching T.V was a rare occurrence, phone was a device from the outer-space, computer was never really seen before, and farming was my "favourite" activity.
These had always became my motivations of why I was working so hard in my study. I wanted to be rich. *Ha Ha*

Source: History of Money/nrich.maths

I was afraid of my dad since I was very little up to a few years back, mostly due to his "habit" of beating us, siblings when he was angry and drunk. He was pagan then. However, he was hospitalized for a number of times since a few years back due to an incurable disease (multiple myeloma @ cancer of the plasma cells in bone marrow). Seeing him so fragile now, I don't quite remember why was I so afraid of him back then.

My dad.

My mom has always been my rock for as long as I  can remember. I was always afraid that I might not have the chance to repay my debt to her, that I have always shared with her my "allowances". I've remembered when I was younger; my step siblings will always call me to their houses to take care of their kids, or help out preparing for festivals and stuffs. The allowances that they gave to me, will usually be divided between my mom and I. 

My mom was illiterate (at least now, she can speak in a very basic English to my nieces, with very limited vocabulary), and unemployed. So, she has no income except from the farm, and the rubber estate. Since she was married to my dad due to an arranged marriage, I don't think that they have ever loved each other. My dad had rarely (RARELY) gave my mom any allowances. As time goes by, I've developed a skill in twisting my stories a little bit so that my dad will give me extra allowances for me to secretly give my mom. *Ha Ha*. That was fun.

Source: Arranged Marriage/kenneyjacob.com

I have been going to the farm/estate/orchards/fields since I was small, so I've developed strong muscles on both my biceps, and legs. So, when I went for boarding school, I am actually capable of running for a long distance. I have to thank my dad for this. *Grins*. I've remembered that I couldn't even beat the girls at my primary school when I was younger, and yet, I could represent my school for sports and stuffs.

Source: Running Track/eriding.net

I wasn't really able in making friends during the first few months at my middle school since I rarely smiled. So, it was quite a surprise when I've actually befriend a number of girls by the end of that year, and we are still best friends now. On the second year of my middle school, I've gotten to know a teacher who teaches Japanese, and I've adored her. She's our inspiration. :)

Sensei :)

After I've finished my form 5, I've applied for a scholarship to be a doctor, but was rejected. That was such a big roadblock in my life as a student. I've remembered crying myself out inside a van, going home. In the end, I've spent an extra one year in matriculation, before doing my A-level. It was quite a waste of young age, I must say. However, I was christened Christcelda that year at Labuan. So, not a total waste! God had other plans for me.

Source: Labuan Matriculation College/panoramio.com

Right now, I'm a second year Chemist in the University of Bristol. I can't imagine it! My major is the subject that I thought was the toughest during my SPM. However, due to a certain special teacher at matriculation, I've learnt to love this subject, thus took a big leapt in my "future-career" choice. At the moment, I am studying to be a chemistry teacher, since I am bonded with the ministry of education. Regardless of that bond, I won't stop as it is.

I will further my study once I've stabilized my financial status, and I wanted to become a green chemist at one of the research centre at Sabah. The environment has been deteriorating badly these days, that I want to recover all of that for my future generations. I would like to hear people saying sometimes that I've made a difference.

I wanted to be rich, so that I can buy the land at the other side of the road, in front of my elder brother's house. I will build a big house there, so that I can open a nursery at my home. Since I have been talking forever in my previous posts about my love for dogs, I will keep a number of pet dogs around my house.

I wanted my mom to live a long life, so that I can keep on taking care of her, and bring her to all over the world so that she can brag about her travels to the neighbours. I wanted to get married, and have kids that I will love so much, and will teach them how to respect the elderly.

I am so selfish, that I wanted everybody to share my happiness. I have even thought of adopting the children in Africa, or anywhere in the third-world countries, so that they can at least learn that there is more to life than just suffering in poverty. Sometimes, I've thought of opening a special house for all the less fortunate out there. I know that these are just wishful thinking right now.

So, that's why I have no choice, but to be rich!

Oh my! I was so immersed in myself, that I've wrote toooooooooo much.

Anyway, please be happy, people!